i hope i will be able to put across my thoughts here as i have never been able to express . writing in a blog is really a strange experience for someone like me . not only because I've never written anything before ,but also because it seems to me dat later on neither i nor anyone else will be intrested in musings of a confusing girl like me . OH WELL it dosen't matter i feel like writing and i have an ever greater need to get all kinds of things off my chest.
'paper has more patience than people ' i thought of this saying on one of those days when i was feeling little depressed and and was sitting at home with my chin in hands .wondering whether to stay at home or run away . This strange feeling of not belonging to any land not ur home town and neither to place u stay leaves u with a thought everyday . excitement to come home and to run away next moment is surely not because u r pamperd so much which u never wanted but beacuse u always need the thing u dnt have dat present moment . after coming home after year gap i could see a hell lot of changes in me . from my school days my buddies used to call me an" emotional bwitch " i wish i could have remain the same . yesterday papa commeted i m girl who use head more den heart " i dint understand do i have to take dis as a comment or a compliment . and yes offcorse i took it as a comment beacuse everyday i m struggling hard to understand myself better to really comprehend what exactly i want. we all friends laugh on the fact that "yaar ab to ko farak hi nahi padta" but on the very next moment we moan "ki kyun hai aisaa" i really want to find out and when i gazed upon the clear blue sky that seemed to stretch out endlessly . the sky which leads to all corners of the world . i decided to reach out to the world too, and try to find out the real "me"
